All posts tagged: relationships

In This Space … 

Decided in an effort to write slightly longer posts and embrace vulnerability, I should share a few “journal” type entries. Not sure whether or not to include full dates, or just day and month, so I’ll play around with it and see how I feel.  31st August;  It’s 10PM and I’m sitting here,asking myself if it really is easier to cling onto these memories, but also wondering why I cling onto them so tight to begin with?   My only conclusion is that I’m worried about what’s outside of this space.  Despite my heart breaking a little more each day, somehow I still want to stay here. Its painful but it doesn’t yet feel like it’ll be any better out there.  In here it’s dark and I feel sick and scared of what will be revealed to me next.  I have to cry myself to sleep, or speak to anyone who’ll listen and then and only then is it over and I can again see a future.  Suddenly I start reflecting on the never ending …

Reflection: August

One word to describe August is bittersweet. Do wish I could leave it there, but as per my bio, I want to share the good and bad with you… as much as I possibly can. I’ll start off with the “bitter” part, so that I can end on a sweeter note. Firstly myself and Mr Cheerful have broken up. There were many reasons, most too personal to share and I’m not too good at doing personal when it comes to relationships. Either way, the end result is we are no longer together. My go to response when friends and family ask me about it, is “ask me in a month”. Because in this moment, there are no real words, just facial expressions, coupled with awkward silences and usually followed up by a failed attempt at a smile. That’s all I have to say about it, for now. Making its way onto this list is money. Financially this month hasn’t been great,  I could’ve managed my money a lot better. SO in a bid to improve …

Contemplation,Week 14

Hello! Welcome to week 14 of Contemplation, where Desley from musings of a frequent flying scientist, chooses a prompt from her Kikki.K  A Sentence a Day Journal and invites us to share our response. * my post from Week 13, here * Today’s prompt: What challenge did you overcome today? One of today’s challenges was not letting doubt and anxiety of making it work take over. Myself and Mr Cheerful are currently in a long distance relationship, it’s the first time for us both. And at the moment we’re still in the teething stages of it all, the one where we try to get into a routine and battle out the big struggle that is time difference. He is eight hours ahead of me, when he sleeps I’m at work, and his at work whilst I sleep. Admittedly I am having a harder time with it than I expected. Maybe it’s due to the lack of sleep (my dog isn’t used to city noise yet and barks through the night) or maybe I am understandably sad that Mr …

Reflection: March

Oh March, possibly one of the most reflective months I’ve had in YEARS. There’s so much going on some, I’ll probably never talk about simply because I don’t have the right words. The parts that I do have the words for may sound a little ram-bly (is that a word?) either way, here goes starting with the, Downs … My emotions have been running high with the thought of giving up living abroad (for a while). It’s no secret that I have been extremely homesick and all I’ve wanted was hugs from my best friends and a decent cup of tea! But now that time is approaching, I suddenly remember the little things that I enjoy about living in Japan and will be giving up for example: Going  for late night runs without fear / having random strangers stop me in the middle of the street for a chat even though I don’t understand and can barely respond /  cycling everywhere without fear of some idiot texting whilst driving & knocking me over / polite …

Three Things Thursday

Happy Three Things Thursday people. The week’s almost over so hang in there. It’s been slow in terms of general life, but on the blog front I’ve been trying to be one of those ‘post daily bloggers’ and verdict, yep still not for me. So next week we’ll probably resume my normal schedule. Props to those of you who are daily post-ees I have no idea how you have your s**t so together! Feel free to share your secrets? Here’s my little list of smile for the week: Good Morning Messages. Woke up this morning to a lovely message from my best friend, I really MISS her. Sometimes it’s difficult maintaining contact with loved ones, but understanding that it works both ways and both sides need to make an effort, has helped hold some of my relationships together. Her message was a beautiful reminder of that and great to wake up to! Social Inspiration. I have been making an effort to be more involved with social media, despite the anxious kid in me is screaming DON’T …

Heart Day! …

Oh sweet Valentine’s day, you have no idea what kind of trouble you can cause! Half of us spend this time of year rolling our eyes so far back its a surprise we don’t fall over, at the just the mention of the day. The other half, are busy trying to guess what xx got them or how they can’t wait to see xx face when they show them what they’ve brought/made. Although I’m not a big advocate for v-day, I am a huge sucker for LOVE and anything that encourages to remember and be grateful for those we hold dear to us. BUT as with everything else, I haven’t made any concrete plans and I’m aware that the day is fast approaching. SO if you’re in the same boat, grab your beverage of choice and have a look at the list below! I wanted to feature links with ideas that cater to everyone in your life (yes even pets) whom you’d like to shower with extra love and appreciation. Lovley links: Cards! Cards! Cards! …