All posts tagged: reflection

Reflection: September 

Firstly, I have officially been home for 3 months! Feels so much longer, as a lot has changed personally and continues to shift, so let’s get onto what took place this month. – Work has been incredibly exhausting and stressful. And rumour has it that this isn’t even as stressful as it can be, sigh. HOWEVER after having a meeting with my boss a few days ago I’ve been reassured that I am on the right track, he sees much more potential in me then I can which is a good source of motivation. Thanks boss! – A friend is currently planning a  business venture and asked me to partner up. Literally when she told me the idea I was like “I knew we were friends for a reason” all I can say that it is in line with my dream job which combines working in music and helping people. This is pretty exciting as you know I have been trying to work on finding my ‘’true calling’’ for years, now that it looks like …

Reflection: August

One word to describe August is bittersweet. Do wish I could leave it there, but as per my bio, I want to share the good and bad with you… as much as I possibly can. I’ll start off with the “bitter” part, so that I can end on a sweeter note. Firstly myself and Mr Cheerful have broken up. There were many reasons, most too personal to share and I’m not too good at doing personal when it comes to relationships. Either way, the end result is we are no longer together. My go to response when friends and family ask me about it, is “ask me in a month”. Because in this moment, there are no real words, just facial expressions, coupled with awkward silences and usually followed up by a failed attempt at a smile. That’s all I have to say about it, for now. Making its way onto this list is money. Financially this month hasn’t been great,  I could’ve managed my money a lot better. SO in a bid to improve …

June + July Reflections

Hello! I didn’t realise I missed June reflection, until I was about to write July’s one. Mainly due to both being nothing short of stressful. Don’t get me wrong good things have happened (they also do) but it’s easy to forgot, especially if you have one of those weekends where you’ve gone to work on a Friday, blinked and it’s Sunday night.  Back to reflections, this time around I’ve decided to make it bitesized, because my brains decided to stop coming up with fuller sentences.  June the GOOD: I flew to London / Landed a new job / Ended up falling for two stray kittens (they’re in Japan with Mr C .. I miss them) June the BAD: Spent too much money getting back home with my dog / Cried almost every.single.day / Left my love in Tokyo. July Ups: Surprised my best friend for her birthday (still the best night ever) / Met up with a few friends for drinks & giggles / Managed to speak to Mr C every day. July Downs: House …

Reflection: May

Hello! Whereas April was all about becoming a better listener, this month was about working on my to do list. The plus side, it’s allowed me time to sort out some important things, but on the downside I’ve been feeling uninspired to do much else. This is the first post I’ve done in 9 days! That’s the longest I’ve gone without saying a word or sharing photos on here. Despite the silence bugging me after just a few days, I couldn’t bring myself to post anything as part of me knew that if I had, I would’ve instantly regretted it and you would be able to smell the desperation. So why the silence? As I’ve written before I am currently in the middle of tying up loose ends in Japan // getting my dog ready for travel // setting up a place to live in London // setting up work in London and generally trying not to collapse under the stress of it all. I knew the whole process would be difficult BUT I underestimated …

Reflection: April

Here’s to April for being the month of learning to be a better listener and more open and honest. Which probably stemmed from March being so reflective. Side note, excuse me if I start rambling, I haven’t been sleeping very well and keep feeling super tired all the time. Moving on, for someone like me who’s a chatterbox, listening has never been my strong point. Growing up my Dad got bored of attending parents evening because teachers would say, I spent more time talking then I would listening to anyone, whether they were my classmate or teacher. A few weeks ago I read an article about how sometimes when we’re ‘listening’ we’re not really paying attention to what is being said. Instead we tend to listen whilst thinking about our response BEFORE the other person has finished talking. Which ultimately means we haven’t fully given them our attention. Something we can all admit to have done at some point. After reading that article, I decided to work on this area. Some of the things I …

Reflection: March

Oh March, possibly one of the most reflective months I’ve had in YEARS. There’s so much going on some, I’ll probably never talk about simply because I don’t have the right words. The parts that I do have the words for may sound a little ram-bly (is that a word?) either way, here goes starting with the, Downs … My emotions have been running high with the thought of giving up living abroad (for a while). It’s no secret that I have been extremely homesick and all I’ve wanted was hugs from my best friends and a decent cup of tea! But now that time is approaching, I suddenly remember the little things that I enjoy about living in Japan and will be giving up for example: Going  for late night runs without fear / having random strangers stop me in the middle of the street for a chat even though I don’t understand and can barely respond /  cycling everywhere without fear of some idiot texting whilst driving & knocking me over / polite …

Reflection: February

Hello! I hope you’re feeling as good as a certain someone post the Oscars! Now is it me or despite being known as the shortest month of the year, February seems to have dragged on? On the flipside, are ready for a brand new month? No, don’t worry neither I’m I. Its been difficult trying to stay on top of things and I’ve been a bag of anxiety, mainly caused from March marking 3 months before we go back home and there are still lose ends to tie up in Japan. Including getting our dog ready for travel. So no biggie, right. In the name of practicing mindfulness and being aware of my thoughts, anytime I feel myself getting worked up I try and work on changing my perspective. By quietly bringing myself back into the present and asking myself, what if everything turned out to be just fine? What if your dog passed all his medical tests and flew out with you What if you’re owed (Japanese) tax money and don’t owe them a single …