All posts tagged: life

Reflection: September 

Firstly, I have officially been home for 3 months! Feels so much longer, as a lot has changed personally and continues to shift, so let’s get onto what took place this month. – Work has been incredibly exhausting and stressful. And rumour has it that this isn’t even as stressful as it can be, sigh. HOWEVER after having a meeting with my boss a few days ago I’ve been reassured that I am on the right track, he sees much more potential in me then I can which is a good source of motivation. Thanks boss! – A friend is currently planning a  business venture and asked me to partner up. Literally when she told me the idea I was like “I knew we were friends for a reason” all I can say that it is in line with my dream job which combines working in music and helping people. This is pretty exciting as you know I have been trying to work on finding my ‘’true calling’’ for years, now that it looks like …

Current Status: On A Sunday Afternoon

Still keeping a low profile, and feeling emotional this week however I’ve had a good weekend so I’m grateful for that! Thought I would share happenings / current life status below, Listening to The Life of Pablo on repeat. There aren’t any “love” songs on there, so you don’t have to worry about any Adele induced emotions or inspired actions, which generally means no crying (YAY). Favourite song: Fade. Feeling proud of myself for going to the Gym. Twice this week (baby steps my friend). After wanting to achieve the perfect “summer body” since I was 16, figured why not get ahead of next year by starting now! Ask me next week if I’m still this excited by it because my non abs still hurt from a class I did about 3 days ago. Thinking about what my morning routine could be, but looking for one that won’t feel like one because once it does, it’s easy give up. So far mine resembles: wake up, get ready for work, walk dog, cuddles dog, feed dog, feel …

Life + Blog Update With A Side Of .. Hope?

Since briefly mentioning my break up last week (here) I’ve been trying to re-organise myself, whilst attempting to do the same with my blog as my writing has fallen way behind. Something which I never saw coming, I thought I wouldn’t be able to shut up and have about 20 posts up already but, nope.  That was until last night. The combination of no sleep, having no contact with Mr C and a weekend fuelled by things people do at weekends, I ended up writing Mr Cheerful a bit of a book. This morning, I briefly went over what I had written and the parts I looked at seem so tangled in sadness, shock and confusion.  Emotions of going through a break up? But for some reason I feel the same way I did when my Grandfather died. Which is that I have no right to feel this way. I shouldn’t be sad anymore. I should already have moved on from this.  I should already be .. happier. Think these thoughts may also be down …

Reflection: August

One word to describe August is bittersweet. Do wish I could leave it there, but as per my bio, I want to share the good and bad with you… as much as I possibly can. I’ll start off with the “bitter” part, so that I can end on a sweeter note. Firstly myself and Mr Cheerful have broken up. There were many reasons, most too personal to share and I’m not too good at doing personal when it comes to relationships. Either way, the end result is we are no longer together. My go to response when friends and family ask me about it, is “ask me in a month”. Because in this moment, there are no real words, just facial expressions, coupled with awkward silences and usually followed up by a failed attempt at a smile. That’s all I have to say about it, for now. Making its way onto this list is money. Financially this month hasn’t been great,  I could’ve managed my money a lot better. SO in a bid to improve …

Three Things On A Friday

Hello! Hope you’ve had a lovely week? Me, I’m shattered it’s been intense but thankfully has ended on a positive note.   My three precious things for the week;  Sweet As Can Be Home. Myself and the pooch have finally found a place to call our own. Now, is it the dream one we’ve been wishing for? Nope. Did it tick every box I (stubbornly) had in my head? .. Course not.  HOWEVER is it so wonderful that we’re super happy everyday to be there? YES.  We are living in a big spacious house, there’s a park at our doorstep (great for walking your dog) and sharing with three people who have all welcomed me and the pooch into their home.  And that is all that matters.  Because finding somewhere to live with pets (in London) has proven to be one of the MOST difficult, fraustrating processes   I have ever been through and one I would rather not repeat for a long, long time.  Friends. You know the ones who make your world a much …

June + July Reflections

Hello! I didn’t realise I missed June reflection, until I was about to write July’s one. Mainly due to both being nothing short of stressful. Don’t get me wrong good things have happened (they also do) but it’s easy to forgot, especially if you have one of those weekends where you’ve gone to work on a Friday, blinked and it’s Sunday night.  Back to reflections, this time around I’ve decided to make it bitesized, because my brains decided to stop coming up with fuller sentences.  June the GOOD: I flew to London / Landed a new job / Ended up falling for two stray kittens (they’re in Japan with Mr C .. I miss them) June the BAD: Spent too much money getting back home with my dog / Cried almost every.single.day / Left my love in Tokyo. July Ups: Surprised my best friend for her birthday (still the best night ever) / Met up with a few friends for drinks & giggles / Managed to speak to Mr C every day. July Downs: House …

Three Things Thursday

Hello! Hi three things readers, the absence of gratitude is not for the lack of good things happening, I just haven’t mastered the art of coping with some of the trials that have presented themselves this past month.   But today has been a good day so here’s my gratitude list, not just for the week but with highlights from this month.  Kindness. Doesn’t cost a damn thing, so why can’t more people spread it around as much as they do hate? I’ll never know. But I wanted to THANK every single stranger that helped me, during my long journey from Japan to London, via Amsterdam.  It was the best way to welcome me back to Europe. Despite being exhausted, emotional and anxious throughout, each person that offered to help with my luggage and ginormous dog (travel) crate on trains, buses and ferry made the journey so much easier.  I wish I could contact you all and let you know just what it meant to me. And hope that the universe rewards you with nothing …