Month: September 2016

In This Space … 

Decided in an effort to write slightly longer posts and embrace vulnerability, I should share a few “journal” type entries. Not sure whether or not to include full dates, or just day and month, so I’ll play around with it and see how I feel.  31st August;  It’s 10PM and I’m sitting here,asking myself if it really is easier to cling onto these memories, but also wondering why I cling onto them so tight to begin with?   My only conclusion is that I’m worried about what’s outside of this space.  Despite my heart breaking a little more each day, somehow I still want to stay here. Its painful but it doesn’t yet feel like it’ll be any better out there.  In here it’s dark and I feel sick and scared of what will be revealed to me next.  I have to cry myself to sleep, or speak to anyone who’ll listen and then and only then is it over and I can again see a future.  Suddenly I start reflecting on the never ending …